Crabbed, bad tempered, moody, etc, etc

I've been so frustrated today, everything went wrong and things didn't pass off in the way it should do. The last time I just don't succeed in keeping concentrated at school, most of the subjects seem so tedious and boring. It has been demotivated for my for quite a while which resulted into idle behaviour. Today it the consequences came and it slightly pissed me off. Just remove the slightly. But anyway, it was my own fault, so being mad about it doesn't help me.

To let off steam I'm going to write about the weekend. I had two party's as I told you, they were nice! Unfortunately I noticed that those happenings still have a great influence on my weariness, so keep being alert on it is a must. Anyway, I made pictures of the presents I bought for my friends, have a look:

Rose candles, earrings, cute hampers and a blanco painting I still have to draw something on

That moment when desire begins to fade into love. If I like that? I really don't know.

Weekend

Like the sun heared my message! This week has been a tough week, it's a shame that I only can 'rest' for two and a half days. That rest is between quotation marks because so many things have to be done. Tonight we will be celebrating one of my best friends' birthday, tomorrow evening another party from another friend.

Remind good times during dark days

Here some moments where we didn't think about right or wrong.
Where we just lived, crossed our fingers and hoped for the best.

Sun, do your damn job

I know I'm not posting often these days, but due to the winter-time I barely use my camera for taking pictures. When I go home from school the sun already disappeared, it always results in bad exposure which is useless for photo's. Not that I detest these dark days, but I look forward to spring, I really miss the 'using' of my camera.

21 - 01

So there it was. I felt it. In the left corner of my stomach. 

I tried not to crash but I still collide, but I know that butterflies don’t lie.

'Fuck. You.’ And he kissed her.

‘Why are you smiling the whole time?’ she asked.‘I don’t know. Remember the first time?
I’ve been smiling since day one. It just feels so surreal.’ 

‘What’s the reason for that?’ 

‘It's you.'

We pretty much proved that opposites attracts

'What was the unspoken truth? Something about natural chemistry. Like we claimed we'd noticed it right from the start, and maybe it was an explanation, of sorts, of why we kept coming together, again and again.'

"Compliments of the crew, darling"

This weekend I took part in the theatre/dance show which takes place every year, organized by my dansschool. It were amazing days with costume racks, hairstylistes, excessive make-up and stress backstage. I had two acts, and after my performance I got so lovely comments, I would love to do it again next year!

During the repetition, made by another dancer

      

Forgotten prom-post

When I was going through my blog I realised that I'd forgotten to post something about my second prom I went to in december!

 

Holiday is over

I went back to school today. Looking forward to next holiday, so bad.

Confirmation is the keyword, so is consistency

This game is so confusing. I don't even know if you can call it a game anymore. Well, it started as a game, and I didn't planned to let you close enough. I'm starting to, but I don't know if it is because I want to give up the whole play, or because I want to convince myself that you will hurt, someday. I don't know. Really.

Take a look in my room

The place where I spend most of my houres:

Come and go

So I was reading through my textmessages. It's weird that a newyear's message of 'Thankyou for being such a special friend, I'm grateful that you're in my life, you did so many good things to me, thankyou for always standing right by my side, I hope many years will follow with you and I really care about you', turned into 'The same'.

Take memories, and walk away?

It's a difficult choice, whether to stay and try harder, or take memories and walk away. I took a look in the future, and I knew exactly what I would think in later days, if I would choose the last option.

Bericht publiceren

'I found it hard to be in love. That's only because I didn't want to fall in love. 

I refused to lower my walls down. I was too afraid of getting hurt. 

Once you open yourself up too someone, there's a change things won't go the way you intended, and there might be a change you will be left broken. I wasn't ready to feel empty, not just yet.'

Rainy night on January 1

4:34. Hello first post in 2012. I actually didn't planned to moan about loveshit so often, but I guess the best inspiriation comes on late moments. And since my whole timetable is flustered due to holiday, and I literally going to sleep 7 houres later as usual, you see many tiresome texts on this page. But who cares, I've made this blog as a reason for ordening my thoughts, haven't I?