"From the second they saw each other, there was magic.
There was constant laughing, sarcasm and commentary,
something connected them that pulled taut, even without thoughts spoken.
Their looks at each other, had te potential to be endless."

Truly mocking

Nowadays people arround me are stressing out for nothing, talking about testes which will happen eighty weeks later, about all the things that have to be completed before some deadline.. And when I see someone who is working so hard like they will die if they don't, the inside of me get's a bit freaked out.. 

Now I'm starting to see why people could have a reason for hating me in earlier times. 

You know, I was a perfectionist, in former days.
Well I still am, but now more restricted.

Let's say, what needs to be done, has to be done.
And if something has to be completed, I will complete it.

But to continue with my first mock-part,
ofcourse I have respect for those ones.
But the last time it leads into terrible irritation.

Why I've changed my mentality of perfectionism?
My disease. It helped me to understand that there's more.
Because in the end, it's not the years in life that count.
It's the life in your years.

Be my only

Black-peet

Life is big plot. Last sunday I took part in the santa claus event,
I was suprised by how all the things were arranged,
even the little details had to be perfect to succeed the 'secret'.
And I think if people doing their utmost best for such ridiculous things,
how many would be hide in the world then?

But it was fun, I did it friends and all we had to do was
acting silly, laughing, singing and dancing. easy!
When we were done and went for something to eat,
I felt the tiredness though.

"Why?" they asked.
"Because when I'm arround him, the sky's a different blue." I said.

Green 004400

After many magazine's, stores, sites and houres, I found my promdress!
It looks a bit skew and not as pretty as it is in real,
but anyway, I'm really happy with it.
I went to my old documents and unforeseen I came across this:

I remember seeing these dresses a long time ago on the internet,
and I thought the colour was so beautiful.
Already forgot this picture when I bought mine,
but I think it sneaky inspired me, how cool.

I'm a person of confirmation

Do you know what sucks?
I constantly have this fear,
that one day you are going to discover
that I'm not as great as you once thought I was

What a night

Saturday morning now. Friends came over yesterday, we watched Mr and Mrs Smith and after that we decided to go out. When I closed my eyes yesterday I was thinking that there is nothing like an embrace after an absence, nothing like fitting my face into the curve of his shoulder and filling my lungs with the scent of him.

Giving 100% for love doesn't feel right

There isn't a definition of life

I got it. Now I do. When I was younger I always thought 'goodbye' ment 'see you another time'. When I grew up loads of another goodbyes came accros my path, and everytime the definition of goodbye turned out to be 'speak to you never again', I felt it on the bottle of my heart. It hurted, it really do. Nowadays it made me wonder how many times people forgive just because they don’t want to lose someone, even if they don’t deserve their forgiveness. It seems they are trying to avoid goodbyes, everyday, everytime. But you know what, in the end goodbyes can't be avoided. It goes on and on, so act like everybody is your friend, enjoy every moment with any person as hard as you can do. Because the only thing you can do is to make sure they won't forget you.

Art: Into Photography

Yesterday we finished the first art project for school. Few times a year we get another assignments and the first theme was 'Into Photography.' I think they couldn't find any better theme for me, really loved working on the assignments they gave me and what's more, I got high marks :)

Few weeks ago a friend of mine asked me if I wanted to be her 'partner' at an employees feast, and ofcourse I yield. So this weekend we went to Veldhoven, it turned out to be an incredible night with awesome performances, delicious food, great activities and more. There were about 7000 people, so maybe you can imagine the place was very crowded but cosy!

More real?

I'm thinking of posting more things about my daily life, not sure yet. I've always posted kind of 'artistic' and vague things, which I only understand. This blog was actually ment to use as a dust-bin, thoughts which are haunting in my mind and wanted to come out. But if I have some quick look at my photographs nowadays I feel a bit pity for not posting those pictures of my daily life. We will see.

Real life

Presents for sweet friend who turned out 16 last friday.

We had a good, good night!

And the feeling when I'm with you, right there
is the exact reason why I never gave up on you
when everyone else said to stop trying

New

Few days I bought the perfect heels, its a black classic pair, 9 cm.
I think every girl has to have some pairs, they're timeless.

I also bought some earrings during the Dutch Design Week,
we did a quick shop and I came accross these, very handy!