Goodbye, 2011

This year has gone so fast. Many things happened, but at the same time nothing has changed. I remembered ending 2010 with the planning of living each day more impulsive, to stop planning and let the days plan itself. And yes the hell I did. Maybe a bit toó much. Eventhough I've had the biggest fun, it also leaded into some bad decisions. But I've learned from it, so I want to spend this year being more aware of things. Not high expectations, in the end everything will be oke. So goodbye for now, I'm going to have some good time with family and friends, for the last time this year!

Sad lovesongs

The 31th of december, and I'm writing sad lovesongs. 

See me struggling. Struggling with love.

As I saw all the closed curtains, I knew that almost the whole town was asleep. Cycling slowly, waiting for a message. A message that never came. For once, I had the time of the world. We could have had it all. Instead of  that, an empty sound of a key slipping in a lock ended an incomplete night.

1:55. Staring in the dark. My body covered with warmth, my head exposed to the cold wind.
While I'm hearing the falling raindrops it is killing me, knowing that there is a you somewhere there, outside.

Holiday summary up to now

Christmas, already two days ago. Didn't do anything special just like other years.
I think it's a shame that some people don't know the cause behind it all,
but it is how it is. Anyway, I've spent the other days in a relaxing way,
doing things with friends and furthermore, lazy at home.
Today a friend came over, and if things'll turn out well we'll be going out tonight.

Drowned

Serendipity

People like you are the reason why we have middlefingers

I just can't believe it.
Why people still don't understand that they press themselves down,
due to talking crap and making up ridiculous stories. 

Oh girl, let the world know.
Let them know you're a fan.

Perfect love isn't perfect

See this? I like this more than having dinner with candlelight.

All those romantic efforts, I guess I've got over that.
Smoke your cigarettes and talk about coffee with me, I'll be fine.

Inspired by Jewel

Too much time to think

Photographs of one of my best friends in earlier days,

I thought she was the prettiest in the world, I was so proud of her.

But times changes, I have learned that you have to enjoy
 each moment as hard as you can,

once you will look back and realize the value and beauty of those moments.

Hey love, you're so confusing

You don't have the choice whether to fall in love or not. But what you cán do is choose between falling deeply without knowing where you'll end, fight against it or deny your feelings and try to force losing control. I think I'm doing the last thing. They say every girl has that one guy that could call here up at 3 in the morning and the only 4 words she would say is: give me 10 minutes. And I knów that I'm getting lost in your eyes without even trying, that there's desire when I'm near you and that I completely forget all the troubles when I'm in your arms. But I still refuse to admit, admitting leads into expectations and I don't want to lose control. Ofcourse being a victim of love is the most beautiful and overwhelming thing that can happen to you, but on the other hand it's so scary. Oh it scares me so much. Cause you actually never promised to stick around, that's why I don't want to expect you to. But deep inside me I feel I do. It confuses me, and if I give up to soon because I'm scared of getting hurt, I'll never know what I'll be missing. So don't let my faith in you be a waste, please don't.

Christmas holiday!

I'm tired as hell. But you can call it happy-tired. Make it happy-happy-tired.
I'm so relieved with the vision of doing whatever I want these two weeks,
I really needed a break. Just to escape from the hectic liabilities for some days.

Ah I love my bed, my friends, the sweet textmessages,
the presents beneath the christmas tree..
Life can't be more beautiful at this moment!

Winter 2009

Today sucks

They're always complaining about not being able to figure me out

but maybe I don't want to be figured out

maybe I don't want to be like all those other girls

All I ever wanted was a simply 'Darling, it's gonna be OK.'

The day before monday

In the morning I went to the danceschool for a photoshoot for the show we're gonna
 dance in january. At the moment I'm home alone and enjoying hot chocolate:

Yesterday I went for some shopping and bought:

Grey coat

Scarf and bracelet for my friend's birthday

Brown ankle boots

Miss Anna jeans

Protectings cover for my mobile phone

Too tired to hold on
yet too in love to let go
I need you so much closer

Prom no. 2

I love fridaynights.

It's the best revenge of all: happiness.
Nothing drives people crazier than seeing someone having a fucking good time.

My thoughts

So what if he made me feel like fireworks were going off inside of me

He could make me feel like a big fat clod of heartsick dirt

It was like he could take any emotion I had and make it ten times stronger

Which is great when it's happines, but pretty darn awful if it's anything sad

Short haircut

Actually I'm thinking already a while of having a shorter haircut, my hair is now so long that it's getting bored. I saved my hair for prom last friday, pictures will be posted soon. I've seen many tranformations of long hair in a more spontanious shorter haircut, some examples:

Vanessa Hudgens

If my hair is totally straight, it's almost as long as Vanessa's hair in the first picture. I actually want to cut it like the second photo, without a fringe. I just put the last picture there because I want to show that a short cut doesn't always have to be ugly, Hudgens has a face that suits every haircut, but I would never cut it as short as it is there.

Olivia Palermo

The shorter cut looks more spontanious, what do you think?

In the left picture she's also pretty, though!

This was how my hair looked yesterday when I woke up.

It looks so unhealthy and it's so long, and it wasn't even straight!

Because of this 'hairpost' I'm actually thinking
of posting all my different cuts I've had..

Be yourself, before you forget who that is

Kinda stuck with myself these days. What do you have to do when you have to choose between the ones who needs your help and your shoulder to lean on, or the ones who you truly love? I tried so many times to combinate all the things but it never really worked out 

Prom accesoires

These two handmade bracelets and silver ring, bought in Marmaris this summer 

Got this cute, small pocket from my mom
 with inside a beautiful necklace and earrings,

she told me it was actually a christmas present
 I was supposed to got, how sweet!

Clutch from Italy which my dad bought years ago for my birthday

Everything tonight!

I'm really excited, it's prom tonight!
I gave people tips about stores where they could buy their dresses,
lend my shoes for those who hadn't have them, helped people with their haircut..
Now it's my time, I'm going to prepare and get ready,
definitely we're gonna rock!

How to change a blouse into a dress

So this week I don't have to do anything for school, which made me do an experiment yesterday. Well, I tried it before but I decided to take pictures of it and share it with you:

A simple red blouse (Lilianne Burty) changed into a dress,

which you can wear at christmasdiner for example.

And now I have to hurry, school is waiting!

Modest sunbeam

It's 11 o'clock in the morning. I'm sitting here with cup-a-soup with music on in my room in my empty, silent house. Looks peaceful here, with the sun shining through my windows. I went home after the first lesson, have to   go back in twenty minutes. At the moment I'm editing pictures, in the next post I'll show you what I did yesterday.

keep or return?

Yesterday I bought these wedges, the model is just normal but the blue is striking, that's why I'm in doubt for keeping them. On the other hand I think the colour is awesome and you can perfectly combine these pair with basic clothpieces, for one time something different is okay, isn't it..

Don't ever leave

'Never feared for anything

Never shamed but never free
You lived a life so endlessly
Saw beyond what others see
I tried to heal your broken heart
with all that I could
we maybe don't even turn out
in the way you would
perfect from the outside
I know there are things hide
I can't help you fix yourself
but at least I can say, I tried.'

Inspired by Avenged Sevenfold - So far away
and Papa Roach - Scars