Impotence

I've already accepted a long time ago my body doesn't act the way it has to act. You don't feel the pain and tiredness anymore if it's all you've ever felt the last years. But it's hard you know, it's going backwards. I've swum 5 houres this week, I've danced for 45 minutes, I jogged, and went 2 times to gym. Yesterday I was in Belgium for a swimgame and I was absolutely exhausted when I was done with my 100 meter butterfly part. I heard that there were 11 seconds expired above my time. 11 seconds. 'You have to work on your condition, or just accept you can't do it anymore.' So I turned my back to the men and I felt my heart crying.